New sem. New changes. New groups. New people.
BIG headache.
I remember when I first entered med school. The thought that I was going to be stuck here for 5 whole years scared the shit out of me, and my reaction was to just run. From the course, from the university, from the people there.
But then, along the way, I got used to everything. I settled down just great. When I got it into my head that this is where I'm going to be for the next 5 years, and that these bunch of people who were my groupmates were going to be there with me all through that 5 years, I guess I just accepted that fact.
And see where it got me.
I am happy and contented with my group. Hmmm.. maybe not so when it comes to 2 seconds (uh, yeah, that's what we call him. The super kiasu and selfish guy.), but I can honestly say that I love (the rest of) my groupmates. Every one of them.
We practically did everything together. We were in the same group for PBLs, tutorials, clinical skills, HEP, Law, clinical site visits, lectures.......... We even had lunch together, went for movies together etc. Of course, not everyone can make it each time, but we did spend most of our time together. Until the point that the rest of our course mates were practically strangers to us. Ah, in case I forget later, 2 seconds has never joined us unless necessary, and has never shown any inclincation to do so.
Now, with the start of a new sem, though we were still in the same group for clinical skills, we were split up for PBLs and other stuff. Somehow, most of us are unable to get used to our new groups. We all seem to find fault with our new groupmates. We feel like the outcasts in our new groups, with everyone being super duper smart and hardworking, not to mention those kiasu ones. We were reduced to just sitting there and keeping our mouths shut, as there isn't even any need of our presence in the group, what more our opinions.
We were added into new PBL groups. But most of us who complained about our new groups did not feel like joining the new groups, and were invisible there. Instead, the activity in our previous group carried on as usual. Lots of crap, fun and jokes.
Some of us hope that this sem would just pass quickly, in the hope that we would not need to suffer with our new groups as much. But I wouldn't know. Can we ever get back our old grouping?
That said, no matter which group we end up in eventually, we shall always have something in common: we were in Group E when we first entered med school, and we shall always remain as members of this group.
The bond we formed between us is something worth treasuring. It is not everyday that one gets friends and colleagues that can get you though thick and thin. A senior told us at the transition camp last time: you will always be closest to your first group. How true it is. A friend also commented the same. In her own words: "It was great being with each and every one of u people..gonna miss yal heaps.. like they said during transition, ur always closest at heart twith ur first group.. coz these were the people who healped u get thru the initial stumbles in MBBS..thank u guys. and good luck with ur new groups.. enjoy sem2 as much as we did in sem1.. lotsa love.. =)"
Hopefully, the bond we now share shall continue growing stronger. And that we also manage to form similar bonds with our new groupmates. Maybe we will never be as close to our new groupmates as we were with our first groupmates. But at least we will be strangers no more.
Let's hope for the best, eh?
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Scandalicious!!!
It's now 2 months into the MBBS program here, and I can say that I'm having lotsa fun! My groupmates especially, though I didn't really know them that well when we first stated out, have proved themselves to be really fun people. (Ermm..at least most of them la..Haha..)
In the very beginning, we never went for lunch together. Then someone (a girl, I should clarify) suggested that we go for a group lunch. And so, we went for a group lunch. For the next few times that we went for lunch together as a group (or more specifically half a group), it's because she asked our groupmembers who were still hanging around after classes. When she did not ask, it seemed that the guys would magically disappear come lunch time. In their very gentlemanliness, they would no doubt forget about their groupmates. Sad case indeed.
Then...We - the girls, tried to ask everyone out for a movie. We set it on a Friday, as was mutually agreed. Come Friday, most people bailed. Then we postponed it to the following Friday. Come that Friday, again, history repeated itself.
Guy 1 said: Oh, my phone is spoiled, I need to go buy another phone.
Guy 2 said: I'm feeling very tired. I don't think I'll go, I want to go home and rest. Guy 3 said: I'm not free.
Guy 4 said: I'm going home today. (He stays in nearby Seremban by the way)
Guy 5 said: Ermm..That day I went for a movie already. What movie are you all watching ah? (We said: 127 hours or Big Mamma) Oh, that day I watched Battle of LA. (We were like, Oh, Ok..But we're not even watching the movie you watched! @.@)
Guy 6 said: Ermm..All girls going ah? No guys? Then I don't want to go la. Shy.
OH WOW. So in the end, we girls went together. 4 of us ended up watching 127 hours. And then, after we bought the ticket, Guy 7 called and said: Eh, you all watching movie ah? (Yeah..) What movie? (127 hours..) I also want to watch! (We bought ticket already la..you come now lo, but sit separate dy lo..) Yerrr..why didn't ask me one. (Eh, we got ah, you ownself didn't want to come le..)
OH GOODNESS!!!! Super Sweat =.="
But as a group, we get along really well. Haha.. We've managed to come up with the lamest theories, the juiciest scandals...the list just goes on and on and on~
During our PBL about breast cancer, our discussion came up with the weirdest facts. When our lecturer said that prophylactic removal of the breast is a type of preventive measure against breast cancer, we thought he was joking. After we established the fact that he was actually serious, he asked about the advantages of this type of preventive measure. Aside from having a reduced risk of breast cancer, PN said that this would also reduce rape and molest cases. Her theory being: Men are attracted to female breasts, so they feel the urge to have sex when they see breasts. Without breast, there would be less rape and molest cases. SH said that, breasts are very important to females. The shape and size and everything. JF, the supposedly holiest person in the group said that, no la, without breasts how can. At night when off the lights still the same one..and he touched his chest while saying that. @.@ I think my lecturer must be going crazy at that time.
During the next PBL, we discussed about cervical cancer. We had a new lecturer sitting in and observing how we carried out our PBLs. Throughout our whole PBL session, she was laughing her head off. I guess she must be thinking, 'You're the person in charge of all PBLs, and yet you got such a PBL group. Poor you.' Haha.. When our lecturer asked why there's abnormal vaginal bleeding during sexual intercourse for cervical cancer, SH said very confidently that, because there's a tumour, so during intercourse, there's friction, so there's bleeding. My lecturer straight away covered his face with his palms, and rubbed his forehead, telling SH that its not correct. SH continues on, saying, correct wat..there's friction, so there's bleeding, and even proceeded to show how it occurred. My lecturer said, don't even think about it. Forget it, it's not correct. Hahahaha.. Imagine the pain my lecturer was in, and to think there was a new lecturer around at that time. XD
For the following PBL session, we were discussing about burns. And everything we prepared was not what we were discussing. Our lecturer was on the verge of giving up on us. He ended up asking us if we had learned this before. When we said we only learned that in school, and not in uni, he said,: That's fine. I only want school level knowledge." Then, when he asked us any questions later, he clarified himself saying that what he wanted was school level knowledge, or not even school level knowledge and that he only wanted common sense knowledge. He kept saying,: What did I do to deserve this group of students?" and also:"I must have got up on the wrong side of bed this morning." because everytime he asked something, we would stare at him blankly and come up with answers that wasn't what he wanted. We counted by saying:"We got up on the wrong side of bed today too. You're not the only one who got up on the wrong side of bed today."
Well...That's my group for you.
Facts about my group so far:
1. Many many girls have the hots for ZQ. According to AL, the girls in her unit constantly talk about him. He can sit at a table full of girls for lunch. Yet, he says he don't know them.
2. AL hates ZQ (according to her, he bullied her, by saying HI on Fb). She says he's a flasher.
3. PN told KM that JF is a flasher. No idea how that topic came up. They were supposed to be discussing for a debate at that time.
4. JW likes LY. LY likes AH. AH likes JW. A perfect triangle. Amazing.
5. KM likes Abu.
6. JL has a scandal with the Sandwich Guy.
How interesting right? There's more!
Now, there're new scandals~
1. JF is loyal to AL. But then has a scandal with KM. So, AL broke up with JF, and then JF was single. Noone wanted JF, then KM said that she would take him. Guess what JF said? He said,"Har, you ah?" KM was so pissed off. JF already desperate, no one wants him, Yet when KM offered to take him, he gave such a reaction. LOLz.
2. NK likes LM. But LM already has a gf in Sri Lanka. So NK is sad that she can't be with LM. She says,:"Why ah? Why you have gf already?"
3. ZQ says he's bi. He now has his eye on PN's bf. She scolded him, saying,:"Hey! That's my boy, OK?" Oh ya, he's also the attraction of all g--- around, though we really have no idea why. G--- just come up to him and touch him all over.
4. JW came up with ways to be rejected by a girl. First, walk up to her and spank her butt. Second, on the first date, say:"Hey, let's watch p--- together!"
Hmmm.. I think thats all so far...
Oh, NK likes to molest people. She just goes up to anyone and suddely poke them, spank their butts and even bite them. =S Really can't understand her. And JW issued a disclaimer: Not all Sarawak people are like that. He didn't even want to be associated with her at all. Haha! NK's also really really dramatic. We all think she's in the wrong course. She should have just entered the entertainment industry. Especially acting in those old, black and white movies. But then again, almost everyone in my group are dramatic. Directors, screen writers, actors, actresses, you name it, we have it. Anything to do with the film indistry, my group has. Lol.
And me... I'm just sitting back and enjoying all the drama around me. =D
In the very beginning, we never went for lunch together. Then someone (a girl, I should clarify) suggested that we go for a group lunch. And so, we went for a group lunch. For the next few times that we went for lunch together as a group (or more specifically half a group), it's because she asked our groupmembers who were still hanging around after classes. When she did not ask, it seemed that the guys would magically disappear come lunch time. In their very gentlemanliness, they would no doubt forget about their groupmates. Sad case indeed.
Then...We - the girls, tried to ask everyone out for a movie. We set it on a Friday, as was mutually agreed. Come Friday, most people bailed. Then we postponed it to the following Friday. Come that Friday, again, history repeated itself.
Guy 1 said: Oh, my phone is spoiled, I need to go buy another phone.
Guy 2 said: I'm feeling very tired. I don't think I'll go, I want to go home and rest. Guy 3 said: I'm not free.
Guy 4 said: I'm going home today. (He stays in nearby Seremban by the way)
Guy 5 said: Ermm..That day I went for a movie already. What movie are you all watching ah? (We said: 127 hours or Big Mamma) Oh, that day I watched Battle of LA. (We were like, Oh, Ok..But we're not even watching the movie you watched! @.@)
Guy 6 said: Ermm..All girls going ah? No guys? Then I don't want to go la. Shy.
OH WOW. So in the end, we girls went together. 4 of us ended up watching 127 hours. And then, after we bought the ticket, Guy 7 called and said: Eh, you all watching movie ah? (Yeah..) What movie? (127 hours..) I also want to watch! (We bought ticket already la..you come now lo, but sit separate dy lo..) Yerrr..why didn't ask me one. (Eh, we got ah, you ownself didn't want to come le..)
OH GOODNESS!!!! Super Sweat =.="
But as a group, we get along really well. Haha.. We've managed to come up with the lamest theories, the juiciest scandals...the list just goes on and on and on~
During our PBL about breast cancer, our discussion came up with the weirdest facts. When our lecturer said that prophylactic removal of the breast is a type of preventive measure against breast cancer, we thought he was joking. After we established the fact that he was actually serious, he asked about the advantages of this type of preventive measure. Aside from having a reduced risk of breast cancer, PN said that this would also reduce rape and molest cases. Her theory being: Men are attracted to female breasts, so they feel the urge to have sex when they see breasts. Without breast, there would be less rape and molest cases. SH said that, breasts are very important to females. The shape and size and everything. JF, the supposedly holiest person in the group said that, no la, without breasts how can. At night when off the lights still the same one..and he touched his chest while saying that. @.@ I think my lecturer must be going crazy at that time.
During the next PBL, we discussed about cervical cancer. We had a new lecturer sitting in and observing how we carried out our PBLs. Throughout our whole PBL session, she was laughing her head off. I guess she must be thinking, 'You're the person in charge of all PBLs, and yet you got such a PBL group. Poor you.' Haha.. When our lecturer asked why there's abnormal vaginal bleeding during sexual intercourse for cervical cancer, SH said very confidently that, because there's a tumour, so during intercourse, there's friction, so there's bleeding. My lecturer straight away covered his face with his palms, and rubbed his forehead, telling SH that its not correct. SH continues on, saying, correct wat..there's friction, so there's bleeding, and even proceeded to show how it occurred. My lecturer said, don't even think about it. Forget it, it's not correct. Hahahaha.. Imagine the pain my lecturer was in, and to think there was a new lecturer around at that time. XD
For the following PBL session, we were discussing about burns. And everything we prepared was not what we were discussing. Our lecturer was on the verge of giving up on us. He ended up asking us if we had learned this before. When we said we only learned that in school, and not in uni, he said,: That's fine. I only want school level knowledge." Then, when he asked us any questions later, he clarified himself saying that what he wanted was school level knowledge, or not even school level knowledge and that he only wanted common sense knowledge. He kept saying,: What did I do to deserve this group of students?" and also:"I must have got up on the wrong side of bed this morning." because everytime he asked something, we would stare at him blankly and come up with answers that wasn't what he wanted. We counted by saying:"We got up on the wrong side of bed today too. You're not the only one who got up on the wrong side of bed today."
Well...That's my group for you.
Facts about my group so far:
1. Many many girls have the hots for ZQ. According to AL, the girls in her unit constantly talk about him. He can sit at a table full of girls for lunch. Yet, he says he don't know them.
2. AL hates ZQ (according to her, he bullied her, by saying HI on Fb). She says he's a flasher.
3. PN told KM that JF is a flasher. No idea how that topic came up. They were supposed to be discussing for a debate at that time.
4. JW likes LY. LY likes AH. AH likes JW. A perfect triangle. Amazing.
5. KM likes Abu.
6. JL has a scandal with the Sandwich Guy.
How interesting right? There's more!
Now, there're new scandals~
1. JF is loyal to AL. But then has a scandal with KM. So, AL broke up with JF, and then JF was single. Noone wanted JF, then KM said that she would take him. Guess what JF said? He said,"Har, you ah?" KM was so pissed off. JF already desperate, no one wants him, Yet when KM offered to take him, he gave such a reaction. LOLz.
2. NK likes LM. But LM already has a gf in Sri Lanka. So NK is sad that she can't be with LM. She says,:"Why ah? Why you have gf already?"
3. ZQ says he's bi. He now has his eye on PN's bf. She scolded him, saying,:"Hey! That's my boy, OK?" Oh ya, he's also the attraction of all g--- around, though we really have no idea why. G--- just come up to him and touch him all over.
4. JW came up with ways to be rejected by a girl. First, walk up to her and spank her butt. Second, on the first date, say:"Hey, let's watch p--- together!"
Hmmm.. I think thats all so far...
Oh, NK likes to molest people. She just goes up to anyone and suddely poke them, spank their butts and even bite them. =S Really can't understand her. And JW issued a disclaimer: Not all Sarawak people are like that. He didn't even want to be associated with her at all. Haha! NK's also really really dramatic. We all think she's in the wrong course. She should have just entered the entertainment industry. Especially acting in those old, black and white movies. But then again, almost everyone in my group are dramatic. Directors, screen writers, actors, actresses, you name it, we have it. Anything to do with the film indistry, my group has. Lol.
And me... I'm just sitting back and enjoying all the drama around me. =D
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Happy Birthday!
I can't specifically remember the last time I had a big, round birthday cake. With the exact number of candles on it to signify my age lit in a dark room, and a birthday song to go with it. And then, comes the part where I would make a wish, and blow out all the candles in one go. The only proof that those times ever happened was the collection of photographs of my younger days that I keep high up in my cupboard at home. When I look through the photos, even I can't remember having gone through that. Or maybe just a very vague sense of those times.
But today, I had a birthday cake. A chocolate-shreds-coated-blackforest cake!! Oh my..are you like getting oh-so-jealous now? XD
Thanks to my lovely friends who actually thought of surprising me on my birthday (as they always had done so for my past 2 birthdays as well), I actually had a birthday cake lit with candles. They even sang me a birthday song -albeit softly so as not to disturb the other customers of that shop.
According to them, the wish you make on your 21st birthday is especially 'ling'. Which basically means there's a very very very high probability of it coming true. Yay!!! They even requested that I make a wish for them as well. =) Well, of course I did. They're my friends, and they've been through so much together with me. Hmmm...actually I think my wish actually encompasses everyone? I hope so. =P
Don't be sorry cause you think it wasn't a surprise enough.
Don't be sorry that you weren't able to fully get into the mood.
Don't be sorry that you couldn't accompany me the day before.
Don't be sorry that you weren't able to celebrate it that night itself when the clock striked 12.
Why be sorry for all those small little stuff when you guys have given me so much more?
You have given me friends that I know I can be myself with.
Friends who will never judge me. Who can joke and laugh with me.
Friends who will accept me for the crazy person that I am.
Friends who will be with me throughout.
You have brought joy and laughter into my life ever since I met you.
How else could I have survived the past two and a half years??
The things we did, the gossips we raged about.
I would never be who I am now, had I not known every single one of you.
Rest assured that all of you, every single one of you, whether or not you know it~
Have become integral parts of my life.
My life will never be the same again.
Because I met all of you.
None of you is more important, or slightly less important in my heart.
Every one, and I do mean what I say~
Is important to me.
How can my life be complete without any of you?!
Thank you, my friends.
*P.S. Thanks Sue Zian, Helen and Xiao Yun for celebrating my birthday with me. Thanks for even thinking of trying to surprise me. Thanks Sue Zian for taking the trouble to walk sooooo far just to get me that cake.
Thanks Shu Jin and Sing Chee for the birthday wish!!
And thanks everyone for this birthday celebration, and also for all those before this.
Lotsa Love
<3>
But today, I had a birthday cake. A chocolate-shreds-coated-blackforest cake!! Oh my..are you like getting oh-so-jealous now? XD
Thanks to my lovely friends who actually thought of surprising me on my birthday (as they always had done so for my past 2 birthdays as well), I actually had a birthday cake lit with candles. They even sang me a birthday song -albeit softly so as not to disturb the other customers of that shop.
According to them, the wish you make on your 21st birthday is especially 'ling'. Which basically means there's a very very very high probability of it coming true. Yay!!! They even requested that I make a wish for them as well. =) Well, of course I did. They're my friends, and they've been through so much together with me. Hmmm...actually I think my wish actually encompasses everyone? I hope so. =P
Don't be sorry cause you think it wasn't a surprise enough.
Don't be sorry that you weren't able to fully get into the mood.
Don't be sorry that you couldn't accompany me the day before.
Don't be sorry that you weren't able to celebrate it that night itself when the clock striked 12.
Why be sorry for all those small little stuff when you guys have given me so much more?
You have given me friends that I know I can be myself with.
Friends who will never judge me. Who can joke and laugh with me.
Friends who will accept me for the crazy person that I am.
Friends who will be with me throughout.
You have brought joy and laughter into my life ever since I met you.
How else could I have survived the past two and a half years??
The things we did, the gossips we raged about.
I would never be who I am now, had I not known every single one of you.
Rest assured that all of you, every single one of you, whether or not you know it~
Have become integral parts of my life.
My life will never be the same again.
Because I met all of you.
None of you is more important, or slightly less important in my heart.
Every one, and I do mean what I say~
Is important to me.
How can my life be complete without any of you?!
Thank you, my friends.
*P.S. Thanks Sue Zian, Helen and Xiao Yun for celebrating my birthday with me. Thanks for even thinking of trying to surprise me. Thanks Sue Zian for taking the trouble to walk sooooo far just to get me that cake.
Thanks Shu Jin and Sing Chee for the birthday wish!!
And thanks everyone for this birthday celebration, and also for all those before this.
Lotsa Love
<3>
Friday, March 4, 2011
Missing You
It's the first week of classes here.
Though we went through Orientation Week, and also the Transition Camp at Genting together, I still don't feel close with you. Maybe I know you a tiny bit more compared to when we first met at the Transition Camp, when we were thrown into the same group.
We're going to be in the same PBL group together for the first semester, at the very least. And then, our grouping will be shuffled again. But....somehow.. I just don't feel this connection with you guys. I even have an urge to run away from all this; right now, right here. But I know I can't. It was my decision to come here. And I feel that I made the right choice. But now, I'm actually wondering if I will survive 5 years of this. Can I? Will I?
Maybe it's because I had a taste of the medical programme before this.
Maybe it's because I had forged pretty good relationships with my previous PBL group members.
Maybe it's because I went through a lot more together with my group members from my previous PBL group.
Maybe it's because you already have your own cliques.
Maybe it's because I'm still in denial, wishing to have my friends back instead of starting over again.
But one thing I know for sure.
I can't fit in with you guys.
Most of the time, I feel left out.
Most of the time, I feel as if I'm the odd one out.
Most of the time, I'm alone.
Temporary or Permanent??
I don't know. But I don't see any hope for anything changing in the near future...
With time, maybe some things will change.
I wouldn't know.
But I certainly hope so.
Maybe, one day, I will fit in...
But right now, I am seriously missing all my lovely friends~ My A-levels super friends and my lovely friends from med school.
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! <3>
Though we went through Orientation Week, and also the Transition Camp at Genting together, I still don't feel close with you. Maybe I know you a tiny bit more compared to when we first met at the Transition Camp, when we were thrown into the same group.
We're going to be in the same PBL group together for the first semester, at the very least. And then, our grouping will be shuffled again. But....somehow.. I just don't feel this connection with you guys. I even have an urge to run away from all this; right now, right here. But I know I can't. It was my decision to come here. And I feel that I made the right choice. But now, I'm actually wondering if I will survive 5 years of this. Can I? Will I?
Maybe it's because I had a taste of the medical programme before this.
Maybe it's because I had forged pretty good relationships with my previous PBL group members.
Maybe it's because I went through a lot more together with my group members from my previous PBL group.
Maybe it's because you already have your own cliques.
Maybe it's because I'm still in denial, wishing to have my friends back instead of starting over again.
But one thing I know for sure.
I can't fit in with you guys.
Most of the time, I feel left out.
Most of the time, I feel as if I'm the odd one out.
Most of the time, I'm alone.
Temporary or Permanent??
I don't know. But I don't see any hope for anything changing in the near future...
With time, maybe some things will change.
I wouldn't know.
But I certainly hope so.
Maybe, one day, I will fit in...
But right now, I am seriously missing all my lovely friends~ My A-levels super friends and my lovely friends from med school.
I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! <3>
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Saying Goodbye
Time flies.
Imagine that just 8 months ago, I entered the medical program with thoughts of leaving as soon as I could. I didn't feel comfortable around my classmates; they were like complete strangers to me. And I couldn't seem to be as close to them as I was with my A-levels friends.
September came and went.
No matter how much I wanted to, I couldn't leave.
And I was depressed to be stuck there.
But by then, I was on quite friendly terms with my classmates. Not as close as my other friends, but not strangers anymore.
Then came December~
I got the offer letter. And I knew for sure that I would be able to leave.
But...somehow, I felt a little reluctant.
On my side at least, I felt happy to be around my classmates. They have become my friends. Maybe not very very very close, but close enough that I would feel sad leaving them. I had so much fun during my time spent with them.
The outings~
The gatherings~
The meals together~
The supposedly studying together~
The events we carried out together~
And most importantly... THE GOSSIPS!! XD
I postponed leaving for as long as I could.
I still went for classes.
I still went for events.
I still gossiped to my heart's content =P
But the time came eventually.
The Friday before I left, my classmates had a farewell party for me.
Steamboat and a present I didn't expect~
More importantly were the people who turned up. I didn't expect that many people to come. Even those that usually didn't join in for gatherings or outings, or those who always go back on Fridays, stayed back for a while just to come. I'm really amazed. And for all that they have done, I am sincerely grateful and appreciative.
Thank you everyone!
Though I wish I could see everyone sometime again in the near future, and that I would be able to keep in touch with them still, I don't really think it will be as ideal as I make it out to be.
Our timetables may not be the same, our holidays not at the same time, we have nothing in common anymore, or it may be just that you don't feel like keeping in contact anymore. Who knows? And who can stop you from making that decision?
Goodbyes really are the hardest.
Especially when you are leaving a group of people you can call your friends, to a new place where everyone is a total stranger.
Imagine that just 8 months ago, I entered the medical program with thoughts of leaving as soon as I could. I didn't feel comfortable around my classmates; they were like complete strangers to me. And I couldn't seem to be as close to them as I was with my A-levels friends.
September came and went.
No matter how much I wanted to, I couldn't leave.
And I was depressed to be stuck there.
But by then, I was on quite friendly terms with my classmates. Not as close as my other friends, but not strangers anymore.
Then came December~
I got the offer letter. And I knew for sure that I would be able to leave.
But...somehow, I felt a little reluctant.
On my side at least, I felt happy to be around my classmates. They have become my friends. Maybe not very very very close, but close enough that I would feel sad leaving them. I had so much fun during my time spent with them.
The outings~
The gatherings~
The meals together~
The supposedly studying together~
The events we carried out together~
And most importantly... THE GOSSIPS!! XD
I postponed leaving for as long as I could.
I still went for classes.
I still went for events.
I still gossiped to my heart's content =P
But the time came eventually.
The Friday before I left, my classmates had a farewell party for me.
Steamboat and a present I didn't expect~
More importantly were the people who turned up. I didn't expect that many people to come. Even those that usually didn't join in for gatherings or outings, or those who always go back on Fridays, stayed back for a while just to come. I'm really amazed. And for all that they have done, I am sincerely grateful and appreciative.
Thank you everyone!
Though I wish I could see everyone sometime again in the near future, and that I would be able to keep in touch with them still, I don't really think it will be as ideal as I make it out to be.
Our timetables may not be the same, our holidays not at the same time, we have nothing in common anymore, or it may be just that you don't feel like keeping in contact anymore. Who knows? And who can stop you from making that decision?
Goodbyes really are the hardest.
Especially when you are leaving a group of people you can call your friends, to a new place where everyone is a total stranger.
Goodbye, everyone. I will surely and truly miss you guys!
Friday, October 22, 2010
I'm Loving Life! =)
Life is good to me.
Though I may not have gotten what I wanted so badly initially, I'm more than thankful of my current situation.
During my times of need, family and friends were there with me. They were genuinely concerned about my well-being, and I truly appreciate it. They even know me better than I know myself. Even though I thought I was okay (and I told them so whenever they asked), they knew that I was actually struggling to come to terms with the harsh reality. They comforted me, encouraged me, supported me, and brought me much joy and laughter in those times of depression. Without them, I wouldn't have come out of my depression. Without them, I would probably still be a zombie, walking around each day, yet not knowing what is wrong with myself. With their help, I've managed to accept this fact. I've finally let it all go... And it's all thanks to them. My family. My friends. Thank you all so much!! =)
This university I'm currently studying in is not my first choice university. I wanted to run away from here badly. I wanted to go somewhere which I believed was better. But now, after 4 months together with my course mates, I begin to wonder. If I were to be given a choice to stay or to leave, would I stay or would I leave? 1 thing for sure, I would definitely miss them. My classmates, and also my lecturers.
In class, we manage to get along well with each other, even though we practically do not know each other. Sometimes, there will be conflict among us, but, hey, who doesn't? We talk, we laugh, we gossip. We're one big happy family. hahah...
A brief run-down of the activities we've had so far (and of course only those that I have attended).
(1) If I remember correctly, the first ever class activity I attended was dinner at Dylan's place. Some 20++ of us cramped into his unit (while his housemates were away), and had curry noodles for dinner. But dinner is not the end of it. We were to reluctant to leave I guess, and so had a game of Truth-and-Dare. Not really fun as in exciting or thrilling (I guess we still didn't know each other well enough to know what questions to ask :p), but I enjoyed it. You wouldn't believe some of the stupid questions that people could come up with, and the answers people give - direct and way too truthful. xD
(2) The second one was a trip to Nadia's house in Bentong, for her Hari Raya Open House. My parents were shocked to know that I wanted to go all the way to Pahang just for lemang and rendang. But then, we should always try something we've never done before right? =DD
(3) Then it was BBQ at Boe's place. The place he lives in...... is a mansion, with a swimming pool too. Another house will be built on the remaining land his dad bought, just beside his house, for his younger brother, and they shall share the swimming pool. His house is one that has all the names of the family members on the gate. And it's written in front of his house : Rumah Boez. How cool is that? His dad actually designed the house himself, using some designs from a palace. And his house is actually bigger than the original palace where the design came from. Walking into his house is just like walking into a museum. Antiques everywhere, with even an antique phone!! He even has cat houses which are bigger than the rooms we're currently staying in. Some of us (including me) even volunteered to work at his house. 1 will be the gardener, another the plate-washer, another the sweeper, another the swimming pool cleaner, and another the door man. Hahaha... Just so that we can stay at his house. And his place is so organised. His family photo albums goes into one cupboard, videos from olden times into another, and he has so much books at home that we think he may have a better collection of medical books than our university itself. =D
(4) Ah... after crashing Dylan's and Boe's, we just had to find another 'victim'. Jasmaine. My last trip to Melaka was ages ago, in primary school. So I was extremely happy when the trip to Melaka was suggested. Of course, the fact that the main purpose of the trip was nothing but EAT, EAT and EAT just added to my eagerness. I couldn't wait for the day of the trip. Yet, when that day came, I almost never went. But in the end, I did. And I did not regret a single moment of it. =) The trip was all about light bulbs (poor lil' Deepak-thanks to me, he got to be a big blinking light bulb, yet he wasn't aware of it), Jonker walk (sadly I didn't finish the entire length of it. And the laksa was totally horrible. Yucks!), satay celup (hmmmm..it didn't really taste that good to me, but then, Boe said that I chose the wrong things to celup =D), Jasmaine's mom's birthday (Oh, her mom is like totally COOL~ even told us which clubs to go to if we wanted to go clubbing. Haha..), releasing our Kong Ming Deng (3 of them-academic, love and general), walking around the I-dunno-what-walk (with Boe acting as our chaperone-I feel. He's like a big brother to us, constantly looking out for our safety), and then back to our rented place for mahjong (during which I was questioned as to whether I'm even Chinese because I coudn't play mahjong), cards, and lantern walk at 5am!!! The dogs in the neighbourhood were barking like crazy when we passed by, and I think people who walked by our house in the morning must think that we're luncatics. But then again, I think we are. =P
Only 4 months into the programme, and we're having so much fun. I'm anticipating yet more to come! Now, who was it that said medical students are boring and don't know how to have fun??
What else can I say?
I'm Loving Life!
Though I may not have gotten what I wanted so badly initially, I'm more than thankful of my current situation.
During my times of need, family and friends were there with me. They were genuinely concerned about my well-being, and I truly appreciate it. They even know me better than I know myself. Even though I thought I was okay (and I told them so whenever they asked), they knew that I was actually struggling to come to terms with the harsh reality. They comforted me, encouraged me, supported me, and brought me much joy and laughter in those times of depression. Without them, I wouldn't have come out of my depression. Without them, I would probably still be a zombie, walking around each day, yet not knowing what is wrong with myself. With their help, I've managed to accept this fact. I've finally let it all go... And it's all thanks to them. My family. My friends. Thank you all so much!! =)
This university I'm currently studying in is not my first choice university. I wanted to run away from here badly. I wanted to go somewhere which I believed was better. But now, after 4 months together with my course mates, I begin to wonder. If I were to be given a choice to stay or to leave, would I stay or would I leave? 1 thing for sure, I would definitely miss them. My classmates, and also my lecturers.
In class, we manage to get along well with each other, even though we practically do not know each other. Sometimes, there will be conflict among us, but, hey, who doesn't? We talk, we laugh, we gossip. We're one big happy family. hahah...
A brief run-down of the activities we've had so far (and of course only those that I have attended).
(1) If I remember correctly, the first ever class activity I attended was dinner at Dylan's place. Some 20++ of us cramped into his unit (while his housemates were away), and had curry noodles for dinner. But dinner is not the end of it. We were to reluctant to leave I guess, and so had a game of Truth-and-Dare. Not really fun as in exciting or thrilling (I guess we still didn't know each other well enough to know what questions to ask :p), but I enjoyed it. You wouldn't believe some of the stupid questions that people could come up with, and the answers people give - direct and way too truthful. xD
(2) The second one was a trip to Nadia's house in Bentong, for her Hari Raya Open House. My parents were shocked to know that I wanted to go all the way to Pahang just for lemang and rendang. But then, we should always try something we've never done before right? =DD
(3) Then it was BBQ at Boe's place. The place he lives in...... is a mansion, with a swimming pool too. Another house will be built on the remaining land his dad bought, just beside his house, for his younger brother, and they shall share the swimming pool. His house is one that has all the names of the family members on the gate. And it's written in front of his house : Rumah Boez. How cool is that? His dad actually designed the house himself, using some designs from a palace. And his house is actually bigger than the original palace where the design came from. Walking into his house is just like walking into a museum. Antiques everywhere, with even an antique phone!! He even has cat houses which are bigger than the rooms we're currently staying in. Some of us (including me) even volunteered to work at his house. 1 will be the gardener, another the plate-washer, another the sweeper, another the swimming pool cleaner, and another the door man. Hahaha... Just so that we can stay at his house. And his place is so organised. His family photo albums goes into one cupboard, videos from olden times into another, and he has so much books at home that we think he may have a better collection of medical books than our university itself. =D
(4) Ah... after crashing Dylan's and Boe's, we just had to find another 'victim'. Jasmaine. My last trip to Melaka was ages ago, in primary school. So I was extremely happy when the trip to Melaka was suggested. Of course, the fact that the main purpose of the trip was nothing but EAT, EAT and EAT just added to my eagerness. I couldn't wait for the day of the trip. Yet, when that day came, I almost never went. But in the end, I did. And I did not regret a single moment of it. =) The trip was all about light bulbs (poor lil' Deepak-thanks to me, he got to be a big blinking light bulb, yet he wasn't aware of it), Jonker walk (sadly I didn't finish the entire length of it. And the laksa was totally horrible. Yucks!), satay celup (hmmmm..it didn't really taste that good to me, but then, Boe said that I chose the wrong things to celup =D), Jasmaine's mom's birthday (Oh, her mom is like totally COOL~ even told us which clubs to go to if we wanted to go clubbing. Haha..), releasing our Kong Ming Deng (3 of them-academic, love and general), walking around the I-dunno-what-walk (with Boe acting as our chaperone-I feel. He's like a big brother to us, constantly looking out for our safety), and then back to our rented place for mahjong (during which I was questioned as to whether I'm even Chinese because I coudn't play mahjong), cards, and lantern walk at 5am!!! The dogs in the neighbourhood were barking like crazy when we passed by, and I think people who walked by our house in the morning must think that we're luncatics. But then again, I think we are. =P
Only 4 months into the programme, and we're having so much fun. I'm anticipating yet more to come! Now, who was it that said medical students are boring and don't know how to have fun??
What else can I say?
I'm Loving Life!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Letting Go
It began with a dream.
A dream that I had a very very long time ago.
That dream was dashed. Crushed. Not once. Not twice. But a few times.
But no matter what, I still had the hope of fulfilling my dream.
And when it became evident that the dream would always remain a dream, I went sliding down into the dumps of depression.
Family and friends pulled me out of it.
They filled my life with such joy and laughter that I forget about the tears.
They reminded me to be grateful of what I still have instead of mourning over what I have lost.
They told me of endless new opportunities that I have yet to explore instead of fussing over an opportunity that never quite went through.
Their wisdom, their care~
Through their words, and their actions~
Managed to cure me.
And now, I can truly say that I have let go.
Why hang on to it,
When I have something better in store for me? =)
A dream that I had a very very long time ago.
That dream was dashed. Crushed. Not once. Not twice. But a few times.
But no matter what, I still had the hope of fulfilling my dream.
And when it became evident that the dream would always remain a dream, I went sliding down into the dumps of depression.
Family and friends pulled me out of it.
They filled my life with such joy and laughter that I forget about the tears.
They reminded me to be grateful of what I still have instead of mourning over what I have lost.
They told me of endless new opportunities that I have yet to explore instead of fussing over an opportunity that never quite went through.
Their wisdom, their care~
Through their words, and their actions~
Managed to cure me.
And now, I can truly say that I have let go.
Why hang on to it,
When I have something better in store for me? =)
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